A Note About Yesterday

Christian Living, Encouragement | Posted by Inpulse1
Feb 09 2017

After finishing and reading my post yesterday I wanted to clarify something:

My suffering is not as severe as I believe it to be. I know there are others who are suffering even more. I can’t even begin to say, however, how I wish I could really reach out to them. I know a lot of people who are suffering through bad and broken marriages, physical pain, and I have known people who have experienced alcoholism homelessness…one of them being a an older cousin of mine. We did everything we could for him, but in the end he sadly and unfortunately chose to take his own life.

As I said, there are a lot of people whom only God can help. Even the well intentioned Christian can only do so much. We can feed them, clothe them, we can heal them to some extent…but we are most often than not, only the beginning.

We can do somethings, but we can’t do it all…We can provide them with food, but someone else needs to provide shelter…

This is something that while one brave soul can start, another needs to carry on, until the lost, broken soul can survive on God alone.

What I say isn’t meant to discourage anyone, any Christian, but it is meant to encourage one to another to get together in unity and become a powerful force to do good.

This is what church is all about…the coming together of the saints.

Be Healed – By Suffering!

Christian Living, Discouragement, Encouragement | Posted by Inpulse1
Feb 08 2017

One of the things I am struck with while reading the accounts of the Lord healing people in the Bible and by the casting out of demons, is the absence of any suffering going on while being healed. I believe I am not the only one who knows that healing is a process that starts with torture. None of us are healed overnight, none of us are healed instantly either. When we take aspirin for a headache, the headache lingers on for a while before the aspirin does it’s job. When we break a leg, the leg is broken for a few months until it heals. While the headache subsides and the leg heals, there continues to be pain. In the case of the broken leg there is the pain of the fracture itself, then there is the pain of healing, then the pain of strengthening while you learn to walk again.

In life we will go through various stages of suffering. It can be mental or physical, it can even be emotional. All require time to heal. You can never walk away unscathed from a relationship breakup anymore than you can walk away from the death of a loved one. Both take time to get over with.

If being healed instantly was entirely possible, we would be mindless robots and not flesh and blood.

Suffering teaches us a lot, or at least it’s supposed to. It teaches us to be humble. It teaches us not to look down on others who suffer (whatever type of suffering that is…) I know that I am watching my brothers suffering through a lot…I watch them as they work two jobs, doing what they can just to keep the house and family afloat. Or even work one job, with a lot of time off in between. I listen to the breakup of a family.

Right at the moment I am going through some major stuff in my body. There is the sleep apnea, obesity, my left knee and hand are experiencing moments of pain…probably either arthritis or gout. I notice my left index finger has moments of being stuck…normally I would think it’s due to my age…but who knows what is going on. My back is also hurting. God only knows what is next….

But I am becoming instinctively aware of things others are going through. Not that there’s much I can do to help them…that requires intervention from a God that is bigger than I am, and able to provide all the help that I can’t give. I mean I can’t actually cure such things as emphysema or alcoholism, cancer is out of my league for sure. I can’t touch neurosis…and unfortunately I don’t have the answer to homelessness and starvation. (Actually I do have that answer,   but no one would either listen or act on it).

All of what I have written are long term are relatively long term. Even a headache, a rather short term malady, can be long term depending on the state of the one who is going through it. But we can learn a lot through suffering, through our own, or through others….  

Get Smart

Christian Living, Thankfulness | Posted by Inpulse1
Feb 01 2017

In a word…I don’t have a smart phone. Other than perhaps the built in video camera, the built in photographic camera, an alarm clock, and the phone calling feature, and the convenience of a GPS I don’t see the necessity of owning one. I see so many people actually stuck to their smart phones that they are constantly unaware of what’s going on around them.

I was with a group of friends once. We all were in the movie theater waiting for the movie to start. But it was really quiet (the seven of us were the only ones in the theater.) Nobody was talking. I made a joke about something, and everyone laughed. But then it fell silent again.

The situation reminded me of a marriage where the husband and wife never spoke a word to each other. It was really sad. The worst part of it was, everyone that was right next to each other, were basically texting each other. I thought that God must have gotten evolution all wrong. Perhaps one day it will work out that a couple million or so babies are born with no mouths, and with built-in smart phones in place of fingers.

I have a simple phone…only the cel phone itself, plus the ability for non-internet related texting. I don’t text much on it, if at all. If you call me, I will answer it and speak to you with my own voice. If you don’t call me then chances are that you were there in that movie theater.

Yeah, I also don’t have a $50.00 a month phone bill for things I don’t do with my smart phone.

Answer the call of those around you today. Those that aren’t there can wait…

The Action Figure

Christian Living, Encouragement | Posted by Inpulse1
Jan 27 2017

Gideon- It doesn’t matter the size of the army or enemy coming against you when God is fighting your battle for you.

Imagine if you were in a large group of angry people, or even a large group of non-angry people.
There is the phrase that says there is strength in numbers.
And it’s true: A lot of people can get a whole heck of a lot done.
But God never saw it that way. He often used one man or a woman to get things either rolling, or get something extraordinary done.
Moses, Deborah, Elijah, Gideon, Peter, Jesus.. the list is long.

While it’s true that the Christian (or even a non-Christian) shouldn’t work alone, it’s not unusual.

Sometimes a single person can spark a fire, or a movement, or even a cure.

You alone can feed a hungry person.
You alone can shelter a homeless person.
You alone can bring PEACE to a troubled soul.

Whatever you do to start a fire, there is always going to be someone else who comes along and adds fuel to the fire.

Sure, sometimes you will have someone come along with a bucket of water.

But if you are persistent, if you endure, if you persevere… and do it all over again, you will be noticed. And you will carry your reward with you.

It’s not easy. You have to humble yourself. You have to go out of your territory, out of your skin, out of normal.

Sometimes you just even gotta go crazy and do things you normally wouldn’t do.

You might pass that homeless man on the street, and do a U-turn, and give him something…anything at all.
To both you and him, it may not be anything. But to eyes everywhere, it will be everything.

All it takes is a willingness to step forward and take action.


Are You Sure?

Christian Living, judging, Sin | Posted by Inpulse1
Jan 26 2017

When you stand before God, how will you explain your support for Abortion, when God show you all the aborted babies that you supported (via your support for the Democratic party)?

When you stand before God, how will you explain your support for leaders who have overwhelmingly shown their disdain for God?

When you stand before God, what excuse will you use for not speaking out on the things that matters the most to God?

When you stand before God, do you really think that your excuses will matter to Him? Do you think that you’re going to be able to con your way past His all-knowing judgment seat?

When you stand before God, how will you explain how you got more upset at this post, than you did at your relationship with God?

Are you SURE that you won’t hear Jesus say, “depart from me, ye that work iniquity.” (Matthew 23:7) ?

You better make darn sure. It will be too late once you die to find out how wrong you were.

Practice what you preach?

Christian Living, Discouragement, Encouragement | Posted by Inpulse1
Jan 14 2017

On January 1 I posted a basically saying that we gotta keep moving forward.
Allow me to reiterate that and also to offer an apology.
We gotta keep moving forward folks!

We may have plans that we want to do such and such, but if we are just stuck in a rut (I know I am), then those plans just don’t mean a darn thing.

I don’t know what’s going on…maybe I’m too pre-occupied with stuff. I tend to worry a lot, and still much more since my mother passed away. Although things are working out ok, they can be better.

I’m at a loss for companionship. My people skills are gone to “pfft!” I hardly ever speak verbally to anyone anymore, my interactions with others is extremely limited. Although I am a natural comedienne, right now I am so crying on the inside.

Oh yeah, being a natural artist (or at least being an artist), I realize that the better half of the time I need to be alone to work on my talents…but even my artistic side has seemingly dozed off.

I still have ideas running around in my head, but I guess the push to create just isn’t there. I would chalk it up to perhaps being depressed, but that’s not a valid answer.

All I can do right now is pray and ask for your prayers!


This Long Road

Christian Living, Encouragement | Posted by Inpulse1
Jan 01 2017


I’m still a conquerer in the Lord Jesus Christ, but just the same: I am that Christian that is struggling VERY hard in my life.

The straight and narrow is not actually straight…it’s got a lot of twists and turns along the way, but it does come back to the straight way…it always does! So it’s important that we keep on this path, going wherever it leads us, but always moving forward, not backwards, not standing still (unless the Lord tells you to stand still). Think of how the Indy 500 works (or the Kentucky Derby) in both races, the cars or horses move forward otherwise calamity erupts.

I wish the Christian could run full speed ahead, but there would be so many things we would miss, and I am sure the Lord, though pushing us to move forward, has some lessons to teach us along the road. Sometimes these lessons come so near to the end of the line, but that’s because we are so stubborn like an ass. Still, the journey beckons us with more. It’s like a voice in the wilderness…you know the one…you can’t pinpoint it…you only know that it’s beyond the large cluster of trees…for all we know it could be in the cluster of trees. So we run like gazelles into the thickness of the jungle, only to find that the path is covered in thick branches that clings to us, scrapes us, tries and holds us back, but we must push forward through the branches, until we either reach that haunting voices, or we break through to the other side.

Oh yeah, we may occasionally have to work our way around. The density of the forest is so thick at times, we may have to stop and climb to the top of the highest tree just to see where we are at. Hopefully we find enough branches in the right spot to where we don’t have to twist around, otherwise…we will be looking back. And that’s not the purpose of the road that lays ahead!

The important thing to always remember in our Christian walk is the journey lies forever ahead, never behind us!

If you are a believer and you are struggling on the path to the Kingdom I implore you to keep walking on the road you are on. Struggling is a mandatory part of the journey. Even the most faithful have their moments, but they know they must push ahead, because this isn’t a short trip! We still have a long way to go!

Christmas In His Eyes

Christian Living, Thankfulness | Posted by Inpulse1
Dec 16 2016

Isaiah 60:6 The multitude of camels shall cover thee, the dromedaries of Midian and Ephah; all they from Sheba shall come: they shall bring gold and incense; and they shall shew forth the praises of the Lord.

Luke 2:12 And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

Our Lord was born in a box.

It was a wooden box, meant to lay down the food to feed the cattle and the horses. He wasn’t actually born in it, but it was the only bed the child, the Prince of Peace had.

So many things are running through my head these days. Though it’s only ten days away, the Christmas spirit has yet to come to me. And apparently I am not alone. This year just seems different somehow. I’m still mourning my mothers’ passing almost a year ago. I know that mourning has it’s own limit. I’d like not to mourn, because I know she’s a far better place. But I still remember how David mourned the passing of Absalom. I know…two different cases entirely.

The more I think about it, the more I realized Christmas just was never about the gifts, the feelings, etc. Christmas was all about family. Enjoying the company of each other. At least that’s the Christmas that’s presented on that “evil thing” called the Hallmark Channel.

Because of my welfare state, I have never truly been a Christmas shopper. I just could, and can’t, go shopping for things to give to the people I love. I’d rather just order them a pizza, or make a home cooked meal. (Not that I am a cook…most of the time what I cook ends up being not so great). Shopping for people is too much of a stomach upset waiting to happen.

I’m finally settling into the knowledge that I do have limited funds. Even though I’ve tried hard to save a little, it’s just not happening. So I make due with what I receive on a monthly basis. That’s the way it’s always been for the Christian. Mary and Joseph sure didn’t have a lot… just family.

So Christmas can do without the pretty trees, it can do without the elaborate (and sometimes hard as heck) gift wrappings. The Lord had none of those things. What’s important on Christmas is the hope the season brings; that the birth and life of Our Lord touches all…families and loved ones.

He is the reason for Christmas. He is our Hope, and our Salvation. Our perfect gift from the Father of Lights!

Desperate for Love

Uncategorized | Posted by Inpulse1
Dec 07 2016

A long time ago, when I fell in love for the first time, I started writing poems. 
But the poems I wrote, and I did so often, came from a Spanish heart.
You know how the Spanish love…it’s often with a fierce heart.  
The words I often wrote were in the Spanish language,
and somehow even my own words made me cry.

Perhaps my expectations of love weren’t realistic enough.
I believed love was gentle,  never cruel
But love played me for a fool.

I dare to say even today, that love did nothing good for me.
It drove me crazy with a desperation I had never known.
It continues to do so today.

I want to love…so much
But love seems to be always fleeting,
just one step away from me really
But I still reach out
just barely brushing it with my finger tips
Missing it with my heart and more than often my prayers,
hoping that love returns one day.

Perhaps it will, and  I will embrace love once again,
Even for a final time, with just a kiss before we part again forever.
It sounds a lot like Judas’ betrayal of Jesus,
and yes, a lot of times I feel I have betrayed love…
By running away.
You see love plays me like a stormy weather
It storms on me and then it clears away
I long for an eternity out to sea
Where the oceans of love swallow me

In truth I’m afraid to love,
because my heart isn’t perfect.
Every single time that loves comes around,
M heart shivers and it quakes, 
That’s what scares me the most,
That Love will come back around 
I’ll fall again so deep in a bottomless pit
The likes of which I have never known,
and breathlessly refuse to come out of.
Because I’m crazy about love
But love laughs at me.

A Strange Dream: 1777

Dream | Posted by Inpulse1
Dec 05 2016

Though I do have quite a lot of them I usually don’t post my dream on here, or really tell anyone about them. This one was really weird though, and it doesn’t make a whole lot of sense.

I find myself on the other side of town from where I live. Though the area is somehow familiar to me, I don’t know how I got here. I only know that I don’t have access to a phone, and I have nothing on me except my clothes and shoes.

I know it’s a long way to walk, but I start walking home. From where I am I need to travel East for a short while, about 5 miles, , then South for a long while, about 18 miles.

Though nothing seems out of the ordinary, as I make it to the halfway point of the second leg of the journey I sense something is different. Though I thought I knew the area well after traveling it many times before and also because I have lived in the state of Nevada for all my life, the landscape starts changing after I get past the airport.

There are no more houses, parks, businesses…not even the two cemeteries that are the fixtures of the area, even the road is now unpaved…only a dirt road. I also start seeing something that is new and unheard of in Las Vegas: rolling green hills, not mountains themselves, but actual hills full of green grass plains.

I near a farm next to a small house. This is also weird to me, as nothing like this ever existed in Las Vegas before. It’s as if I had been transported to another time and place. I approach an individual whom I cannot identify as a man or woman, somehow it’s clear that at this point in the dream their sex does not matter.

I knew it had been sometime since I started my journey to what I thought was going to be home.. in fact it had taken me a couple of days, yet despite being desperately lost, I had not given up.

Still, for some unknown reason all I asked the individual was what year was it?

They replied “It’s 1777.”

Very strange dream. It’s probably of no prophetic or Christian meaning. I don’t even think there’s a message in it at all.

But it’s 5:00 in the morning, and at this time nothing makes sense anyways….

I did a search on wiki about Nevada, unfortunately the year 1777 means nothing. The area had some involvement with Mexico in 1821. The capitol Carson City was founded in 1861. Las Vegas, which means “The Meadows” was founded in 1908.

Forests only appear to exist in the higher mountain elevations.